summer nights

I know that I'll only be young once and I'm not gonna let that pass by me because of stupid rules. Lately, every night has been memorable and I've spent so much time with the friends who make me feel like no matter what something is always so fucking hilarious. Listen to me, you are never ever going to be so young, so carefree, so responsibility free (even tho trust me I know we teenagers have alot of shit going on) as you are now so take advantage of it. I know I'm bad with commitment. I always want to have a good time instead of thinking about all the consequences. I'm not fake though. I never pretend to be someone I'm not. I always end up doing something worth smiling about the next day. THAT'S what this summer is about for me, and hopefully you. Have some freaking fun, don't worry so much, and above all stop caring what other people think. Those who mind dont matter, and those who matter don't mind so do what you want!

summer love and much hugs, peace out
xoxx

Birthday...?

It's funny how the moments I couldn't wait for when I was younger pass by me like a breeze now. I feel them happening but they aren't so heavily anticipated anymore. My 17th birthday and I haven't settled on a single thing to do. It's the night before. It's not that I don't want to do anything, or that I'm apathetic. It is more that I'm caught in the tide. I'm in between my future filled with all the things I want to do, and the past full of rules that hold me back. My current place is one of uneasy compromise with constant tugs and pulls. It's impossible for me to look forward to planning something when I have all the rules I should have outgrown still tugging at me. It's as if I've gained the responsibility, the age, and none of the rights. I don't know what to do anymore.

17 kisses
xox

Freedom

The very first official day of my summer, and it's a beautiful thing. I don't think I would've made it through one more day of final exams. I spent it lunching on Indian food (surprisingly yummy!) and shopping for summer supplies with my babe Gabs. My first pair of aviators, and a couple mini skirts later here I am.. I actually don't mind being in reading my new Cosmo and updating my blog, I need days off like today. This year has been too much stress. It's like today is the first day of my independence. It's my senior year of high school, then college-FINALLY! Everything is falling into place lately, and I'm loving every bit of it.

Daises, Summer Days, and Dating Hiatus,
yours truly

Jana's Paint

Muse, model, artist Jana's paint photo shoot. My theme was red, and her's was body paint. I modeled for her, along with uber dance talented Jai. I wore the blue dress, and Jai worked the hotpink. It was a creative explosion of paint.. Loved it. Post more pics when I get a hold of them.

Support Our Troops

"Conviction is a luxury for those on the sidelines.."
I think sometimes people get so caught up in their convictions that they lose sight of the actual people who are affected. When people have these strong beliefs as to what is wrong and what is right they don't think in terms of the individuals who are actually living it. It's easy to say one thing, and to defend that belief and yet contradict it the second it applies to someone you know. Abortion, sex, drinking, drugs, racism, discrimination, war, it hold's true for all these things. I've always seen things this way, and I used to think it meant I was weak. I couldn't decide. I see now that my ability to be realistic enables me to be a better person. It could solve so much, if we could all open our eyes, if we didn't have to wait for it to reach someone we know or someone we love in order to be alittle more understanding.

Lately what's moved me is war. I don't support the war. Yet I can't sit here and say the war is dumb so I hate everyone involved. I support the troops. I support those men and women risking their lives, because they deserve that respect.

Universal Truth

What do you do when you can't make the suffering go away?
What do you say when you honestly don't know the way?
What do you give when what they need is more than you can pay?
What do you do when you want it to stop, you want it to be better, but you've run out of comforting things to say?
What do you do when tomorrow isn't coming soon enough, and it's hard living day to day?
You hope
You pray
You fight, because it's all you can do.

Beauty in Red

"External beauty is a gift from god, we musn't hide it."-Father Mungi

What more is there to say?

Another Red theme shoot

For the Love of All Things Red